sitting here. still in my pajamas. wondering what the next few days have in store.

the smog of LA seems to take the anxiety from my stomach.
the spilled drinks replace my spilled tears.
and I am content here.

But I must leave. And be responsible: study. work. 

here - I am surrounded by my best friends. the city.
and the family I have created.

there - I am surrounded by books. my cat.
and the silence of being socially alone but intellectually happy.